Monday, October 7, 2013

The New Unknown -- Medical Monday

Sometimes, I really wonder how this whole residency thing is going to go.

Residency has always loomed in some distant, misty future. It's a cross we took up willingly. Charles when he accepted his acceptance to med school. Me when I said, "Yes," and later, "I do," to a guy in med school. But now . . . now **** is getting real. Applications have turned into interview offers and appointments. Residency, God (and the Match) willing, is looming.

I've given up on the frustration of not knowing where we're going to end up. I pray and trust that we will be guided to the right place, even if it ends up being a blessing in disguise. I know that, as a family, together, we'll make it work wherever we land.

Now, I just wonder about the day-to-day. The survival.

There are some days when Clare's classically toddler whining, antics, and emotional outbursts leave me clock watching, waiting for the sweet relief of an extra pair of hands. Days when I wonder how I will survive the longer, less predictable hours of residency with a second little person depending on me for everything.

Oatmeal . . . everywhere

Then there are days like Thursday. Days when, somehow, I think, "I got this," in spite of a 14 month old who woke up at 4:30  and took an hour to put back down. In spite of an all-day lingering headache. In spite of said toddler's ups and downs. In spite of a looming, dreaded night shift. In spite of all the junk life throws at you. I got it.

Sweet strawberry face . . . nothing better

I want to be a strong, brave person who can do hard things (thanks LDW). I don't have delusions of being Super Mom or Super Wife or Super Residency Spouse. But I do believe I have it in me to be a strong, loving, supportive presence in the lives of my family members. I believe I can grow and be all the better for doing it. I believe I can and will survive.

I got this. (I just have to remind myself from time to time.)

{Linking up for Medical Mondays with Your Doctor's Wife, From a Doctor's Wife, and Life of the Ray Doc's Wife.}

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  1. Thanks for stopping by my blog via Medical Mondays! I get the anticipation over not knowing where you'll be moving with the match. We went through our second match process last year for fellowship! What helped me was trying to focus on the excitment of a new chapter and not the anxiety of uncertainty. Good luck! And your little girl is adorable :)

  2. Stopping in from Medical Mondays! Good luck with the match and just keep pushing! You've got a handle on life, you just have to remind yourself of that!

    Much love!

  3. Thanks for linking up this post with Medical Monday's. You've Got This!!!! I have been there, and some how made it to the other side. One day at a time, I don't know how it happens, I just know that it does.

  4. Of course we will survive! But yes, we need sometimes daily reminders t do stay afloat :) Amen to that! Thanks for stopping by from MM - xo

  5. You can do it. It's interesting to read what it's like from the other side - keep being great :)

  6. You'll get there. You will!! Keep up the great work. Sometimes, when the kids were small, I didn't feel like I did a great job, but I just kept reminding myself that they survived the day (and so did I), and that constituted a great day!
    Thank you for linking up with us for Medical Monday!


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